Old flame, not taking into consideration of its size and importance of effects, can be dangerous to everyone at some point. Rekindling it and knowing how it can be a window for a person, or the other half, to exit, and still making it possible is just stupid.
Old flame symbolises home and comfort. The comfort of his hugs, and the homely feel of her hair brushing through your face when you both walk quickly out of the damp, humid bar into the natural ice cold air. And the comfort that the past present to us are so significant, we would walk right through our partners just for a single short breath of the comfort.
why?
why would we want to run to our pasts? when everyday we are wishing that tomorrow would be better?
what is there in the past that got us so chained on our feet to an extent where we would not look left and right or even think twice?
for moi,
the past holds somewhat an objective, a literature and a fiction that neither the present or the future has. It gives us a certain amount of certainty, and living out modern lives these days, we crave for the certainty. to be in the know, and to know the ending like the back of my hand.
the invisible thick blanket of security is also one of the strong chain that keeps me running to the past. Would you relive the day your cat went missing if you knew she would be missing for just couple of hours? sure, I don’t mind truthfully, because its not that painful to endure that couple of hours after knowing she will be back. Similarly, knowing the end makes everything better to process and knowing someone like you know yourself makes it easier to make decisions. and that is a crucial factor to make a relationship work. So I will have this shameful thought that if I go back to the past, to him, things will eventually work out.
but at the end of the day, the firing thoughts had became a dusty famous article in my mind that I kept safely to myself, deep enough so that no one knows.
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